The 40 Birds of Lent: Observe

Song Sparrow

Song Sparrow

By Laurel Dykstra

Observe a holy Lent—the prayerbook enjoins, then spells it out with this austere prescription: self-examination, penitence, prayer, fasting, almsgiving, and reading and meditating on the word of God.

I am someone with a Lenten disposition. My own natural reserve, saying “no” for its own sake, and avoiding extravagance, were honed by my family and by my participation in certain discipleship traditions. Whatever the liturgical season, I engage in above average quantities of penitence, fasting, almsgiving, and no shortage of (critical) self-examination. But there are places where rigor can’t take you, and the 40 Birds of Lent is one of those places.

Finch

House Finch

My Lenten practice of paying attention, outdoors, is all about that first word of the prayer book charge, Observe. When I practice observation, when I fall into an attentive state something different happens. Figures emerge sharply from the background. Seemingly dull and colourless things flash brilliance. Like the orange on a House Finch. When I think I’ve missed my opportunity and the bird I was looking for has disappeared, I only have to come back to the same place to see it again.

Move slowly.
Pay attention to the periphery.
Public parks, cityscapes, even industrial yards are rife with life and movement.

Observe! the field guide demands. Is the upper mandible curved or straight, two wing bars or one, spots or streaks, buffy or ruddy, was the tail notched or forked?

Starling

European Starling

Notice
The cold on my face
Who is relying on the bittersweet nightshade for late winter food source
The way a shadow overhead silences a chorus of songbirds
The colour patterns on that most aggravating of invasives, the starling.

It’s not all beautiful: the raven eating a pigeon, the crow pecking at a rat’s eye, a nest of rats pulling the guts from a car-flattened gull. Not everyone’s family wants to hear about it at the dinner table or has file on their phone devoted to urban bird carcases…

Raven

Raven

This week in my practice of prayer outdoors I have noticed persistent calls to engage more deeply, to see more. The raucous yelling of crows shows me the racoon they are

Chickadee

Chickadee

mobbing, becoming more frantic as it climbs into one of last year’s nests. A tiny wren thunks against the window drawing my eyes from the computer screen. A torrent of bushtits that floods the yard and I am out the door. Time unfolds differently. I set out for 10 minutes and discover that 30 have passed. I am set to go indoors and am diverted again and again by a sparrow, a humming bird, a chickadee, a finch.

Bushtit

Bushtit

Maybe this is what Alice Walker calls “the universe responding” or what the church calls God answering prayers, and while I believe both are in some sense true, it doesn’t have to be that complicated. I think we are just hardwired for quiet attention. Maybe it made our ancestors better hunters, or better gathers–observing and imitating where and what other creatures ate. Maybe the practice of attention makes us better parents—noticing what our offspring need conveys an advantage, boosts their chances for survival.

Crow

Northwestern Crow

Or maybe there are miracles, and resurrections, assaults, and decay hammering at our senses all the time and our phones, or our thoughts, or our built environment, or even our clothes keep us from seeing. All around us a persistent, clamoring and endless life and death, life and death, life and death, and increasingly, death. Greater Sage Grouse, Eskimo Curlew, Ivory Billed Woodpecker, Eastern Cougar, species, wetlands, rainforests, coral reefs…

Pacific Wren

Pacific Wren

The 40 Birds of Lent documents Laurel Dykstra’s Lenten practice of daily prayer outdoors noticing birds in the lower Fraser watershed. Laurel is the gathering priest of Salal + Cedar, Coast Salish Territories.

2 thoughts on “The 40 Birds of Lent: Observe

  1. Thank you Laurel for the reminder to let naturec allow us to be distracted, if even for. Few moments, from the hard road and suffering on the road to Jerusalem.

  2. We are a family that loves birds and nature, so this is a perfect reflection of truth in God’s world. Thanks for writing this. (Your last name is also part of our family lineage, perhaps we are more than kindred spirits!?)

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